A fortiori

Why I am doing this? (Mind me still under construction. I need some time to phrase it right for my future sponsor, yape u! Just some unpolished thoughts ... )

I am always trying to proof some thing, maybe it to my family, people that put me down, or just myself. I want them or myself to eat the words. I like to prove them wrong when they say I cant do it.

I think that's why I am going for the marathon. It is still unconceivable in my mind that I can do it. I want to do beyond where my comprehension is.

Orang utan conservation has always been at the back of my head, even since young. I just have this thing for apes. I can choose any movies or drama series for apes on national Geographic. yes even grey's anatomy!! I still need to find out why I like them so much. Maybe it is the biologist side of me, primate is the best experimental models! But it is so easy to have skrewd results, because like us, they are largely governed by their emotions that change with their environment. So scientists need to understand primates behavior before any testing can be performed. But remember I am under the conservation program, no matter what, to preserve the species from any activities, including scientific exploration.

I have been fighting these two school of thought nestled deep inside the philosophy of my life. The scientist side of me and the environmentalism side of me. It is because I understand the science, but massively lack of critical apprehension of nature of life. Maybe with my volunteering I can come to understand our ancestral being and see what it is like to be them.

A fortiori, to make a fruitful life out of what I have now.